I kicked my domain. I swore I'll never come back. Two weeks go by and I can't resist the thought of reclaiming my space on the web.
I can almost hear you say Geez! Is this guy ever serious about anything?
It's a dilemma, alright. On one hand, I am perfectly content with Blogger. The low tech, off the hook, without a care in the world. All the basic stuff is on your plate. (The feeling is exactly like that of Angela Bennet in the last scene, where she has just a laptop instead of an array of computers on her workstation.) On the other hand, I miss the geekery of Wordpress, the hacks, the ifs, the works.
Honestly, I love both. They give me a challenge to change things. Some of the templates available on Blogger are highly underrated, almost always taken for granted. The one I have here by Dan is simply gorgeous. And it feels especially so when you haven't spent a drop of sweat over it yourself.
I can quite imagine what it is to truly find a perfect template that you really love and admire. I think, I'm always content when I use others' templates. When I'm on mine, there is this perennial itch to change, tweak something. That is draining. It takes away the time and effort from the real part of it all: writing.
There's another choice to make: anonymity vs. being known. I am always of the opinion that people scale you when they see your picture or stuff you put up about yourself. I find it limiting, sometimes. Tell me I'm wrong. Of course, not that it really matters, when you write for yourself.
Then, there's this most important catalyst called audience. Now, having an audience is a funny thing. If you don't have them, you're free. You think, oh, no one's reading, and by which sometimes, you produce better stuff. On the other hand, there's this 'hollow' feeling about the lack of'em.
My audience influences me in many ways. I do study topics that show up higher in my stats, especially when I am not expecting them to be rated well. And many a times, I think I've had a good piece, but it fails the stat test, i.e., no hits. Curiously surprising and funny. Private posts get an awful lot of hits. What is it that people want to know so much about your life and your family? I gather, it is the human tendency to dig into that which is obviously not easy to get.
At the moment, I have not made a move to switch domain or a host. Neither have I renewed my domain or hosting plan. But, not a day goes by without reflecting about my immediate previous thoughts on the issue. Funny as they get, they're never the same in sequence. I guess I'm going through a bitter sweet experience of to be or not to be.
For now, I let it linger on.